Curve Candy: I just wanna be "me"

There are so many things I would do if I didn't have to be "professional".

If I were allowed to express my inner "me-ness" (not to be confused with imagination...which I don't have) - I'd experiment with everything -my hair, my makeup, my clothing, jewelry...tattoos, etc.

I'd do a lot of things to my hair - I'd probably change it on a bi-weekly basis. One of my favorite hairstyles is the new tip-dying trend, as per Lauren Conrad (see above left). Now, I've already cleared this style with the powers-that-be as acceptable, but part of me feels like it may be pushing the envelope too far.

A significant part of me yearns to be freed from the norms of society - the punk/emo forever-high-schooler and overly-emotional adult-in-arrested-development girl inside screaming at the top of her lungs when I see Taking Back Sunday at the House of Blues. This girl would definitely Up the Punk! and have a haircut something like this -

(Paris Hilton's Friend Jen)

This hair would probably be multicolored as well...or at least, I'd change the color all the time - just because I could. I love the femininity expressed by keeping the flowing and relatively long hair juxtaposed with the edginess of the shaved head. It's hot, beautiful, and downright cool.

I'd probably get more tattoos...I have three (only one is always visible). I'd love a beautiful 1/2 or 3/4 sleeve on one arm full of meaningful, delicate, colorful and feminine art. I love tattoos and I long for the day when they're no longer considered taboo. Perhaps one day I'll do a post on my three tattoos, but not today. This post is about what I want, not what I have.

But speaking of tattoos, the blog Sometimes Sweet does a Tattoo Tuesday post every week! and I'm a huge fan of Danielle's tattoos and creativity. Definitely worth the read!

As far as clothes - well, I don't really have a current style. I'm pretty minimalist as far accessories go - earrings, rings (maybe 1 or 2), pendant necklace. I love statement necklaces and cocktail rings, but every time I try to wear them I feel like I'm trying too hard...like I'm pretending to be something I'm not; or I feel like I'm 5-year-old-me again playing dress-up with grandma's jewelry (my grandma has some pretty awesome jewelry, to be honest).

I guess I'm not comfortable enough with who I am and what my "style" is to take bold steps and experiment with my wardrobe. I tend to stick to solid colors, simple dresses and whatever "in" things happen to fit into those confines at the moment. And I'm a huge fan of jeggings.

One day, maybe when I'm retired, I'll be able to experiment and EXPRESS [MY]SELF.

Let's be real here, though, for a moment...we all know I'd probably be a